My plan was to take two weeks of vacation after Congress before New Wineskins. That was spoiled when Dorian delayed my return, and I had a series of unpleasant tasks (like insurance issues and credit card disputes) to deal with. I was so adamant to have a vacation that I was stressing myself out trying to relax!
I finally accepted a week and a half into the two weeks that this simply wasn’t the time to take a vacation. I had much to do to prep for New Wineskins and the upcoming trip to SE Asia. While I knew I needed rest, I had peace that the timing was not now and surrendered my need.
As I read one of the questions in the Bible Study I’m attending, it spoke to me in a convicting, yet enlightening and even liberating manner. It referenced Isaiah 30:15, and the thought that came was that spiritual rest comes through repentance, when I turn my heart away from the things I’ve let it wander to and back to God who deserves my complete affection.
I started thinking holistically. Yes, my body is tired, but what if I gave my spirit the same attention I’m desperately trying to give my body and soul? And interestingly enough, it takes time to really search the heart and go deep with God, which in and of itself is a sanctified sort of rest.
I haven't arrived yet, but am pondering this and praying that my heart with align more with this truth. I don't want to just be a hearer of this word, but a doer. I don't want to idolize rest, but to worship the One true God who gives rest--body, soul, and spirit.
In returning and rest you shall be saved. In quietness and trust shall be your strength. ~Isaiah 30:15